hey guys
worst day ever yesterday, how befitting it was dated Friday 13th yeah? :/ it appears i have alienated almost all of my closest friends. it was all my fault of course, i had a massive row with two of my best friends ever in school which has caused them to be mad at me & the other girl feels she's the cause of the argument & so is probably going to be ignoring me now to let me stay friends & hang out with the girls that are mad at me, which is totally pointless really, though they'r all better off without me tbh.
to make matters worse though its prom next friday, one of the girls that is mad at me was supposed to be coming over to sort my hair & makeup out for me before we went up to the other girls house to get in the car to get there...well, i'm guessing she won't be coming over anymore & it looks like im gonna have to find another way of getting there to avoid awkwardness, i'd rather not inflict myself on them. i'll have to do this on the sly though so my parents don't know...that is if i can acshuly go to prom cos im not sure i got the consent form in in time so i might not get my invite.
the rest of my day i'd rather not discuss if i'm honest, its too depressing for me & i'm already contemplating different methods of suicide just now at the thought of having to possibly go to prom alone, with no date & no friends, looking like a sad pathetic little loser of a loner, too shit-ugly & rubbish to get a date for prom & such a bitch all her friends have ditched her. do i not sound wonderful people...NOT!
if you can't tell i really hate my life right now...in fact i really hate myself right now too cos all i seem to do lately is just f*** my life up more & more.
well thats enough sad babbling from me, see, i'm inflicting myself upon you all now, sorry :( ciao, maybe even forever, i dunno
hey, they always say that if youv'e hit rock bottom, the only way is up. but if your contemplating suicide then you obviously aren't low enough to see sense yet.
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